every second dripping off my fingertips: November 2009

Monday, November 30, 2009

Most of us are now spending time at home with our families, playing computer games, reading novels, fingering the cello and prodding the piano aimlessly. There are also those who are out earning some pocket money at a random job, but what we all have in common is that we are quietly contemplating plans for our future. We are at the crossroads to the next stage of our lives, and the choices we make from now on weigh more heavily on us than deciding whether to skip school on Tuesdays.

Most of my species will be happily defending the nation, so our lives will be taking us to a mosquito infested island before it takes us to a liar-infested corporate world, where six-legged blood suckers now take the form of money hungry con-men in Armani outfits. My rather acerbic statements suggest that I'd rather live a life of simplicity, but quite the contrary. I want to be filthy stinkin' rich by the time I'm 25. My life will be a lot easier then. But alas, I was not born with a Lexus ready for me at 18, nor a promise of a BMW if I should get 45 points. If I was, I wouldn't be getting the BMW anyway, but at least I'll have a car!

It would be naive to believe any life is easy, but it would be nice to have everything planned out like the inevitable doom of enlisting in March. Then perhaps I'd only have to choose between the aerosol spray and the lotion for the rest of my life. I envy these people with the silver spoon, fork, and iPhone, and I pity those who think they can make more of themselves because they had the tougher route in life. It is more cruel than that.

It does not matter how, or where you were born. What people say about the hardworking people is not always true. For my own sake, I would like to believe that. I would like to live my life believing that I can make something of myself, no matter how many of the 45 points available I actually get (fingers and toes crossed). At the moment I do not wish to be deluded into thinking I am the sort that is naturally motivated because I have a bronze spoon.

Now, the decisions I have to make will not be easy, but they will be simple.

somewhere a clock is ticking:
6:38 PM

Friday, November 20, 2009

Hello world.

I'm back!

For all the 5 viewers of my blog who missed me, fret not.

The one and only is BACK.

Okay considering that I've said I'm back twice already just shows how much I have to say. I'm just glad that all this is over, honestly. In fact, I am experiencing the same effect as everyone else: having nothing to do, and feeling empty. Surprising, considering how much I've done over these two years.

Perhaps the most logical explanation for all that we feel now is that our lives have been dominated by this for the past two years that we have nothing else to rely on, but in trying to rationalise our post-exam lives, we are indeed revealing how bored we truly are.

Right now, my mind is clouded with laziness and nothingness, so just let me bask in the ecstasy of my freedom, and gratify my deep hidden desires for House.

somewhere a clock is ticking:
5:39 PM

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

somewhere a clock is ticking:
11:20 AM