every second dripping off my fingertips: September 2008

Sunday, September 28, 2008

Yes I know I keep saying I shouldn't be doing this but here I am again.

I think the world's first ever night race on Singapore's street circuit is a worthy enough reason for me to just throw aside Huck and Sidd to watch. A disappointing outing for Ferrari though, which I must say, even though I'm not a huge F1 fan, made me very disappointed too.

It all started with an accident. Nelson Piquet in his Renault smashed into the wall, prompting the entrance of the safety car, in which drivers made the mistake of pitting when the lane was apparently closed. This caused all sorts of problems for the drivers, especially for the cars in front. Massa, who started in pole, had a commanding lead up till then. A refuelling disaster supposedly caused injury to one of the crew, and he had a 10s stop penalty. From then on, he was out of contention for points. Alonso then took over the reigns of first spot, now with the race turned on its head, with the trailing drivers now in front. Raikkonen retired, albeit in 4th place at that time, with 4 laps to go, summing up Ferrari's disappointing night. A fantastic drive from Nico Rosberg saw him move up the track positions all the way up to second, but it was Fernando Alonso who brought it home for Renault, no thanks to a small favour from teammate Nelson Piquet Jr.

somewhere a clock is ticking:
10:52 PM

Saturday, September 27, 2008

First papers for English and Econs were ok... I don't expect much. I never did. Ain't never gonna expect a 7 so ya'll can go stuff it wif them empty threats of no Dean's list.

Yeah I'm in the Huck Finn mood right now. Damned paper 2 for English is on Monday, and I ain't ready. You can only imagine my stress. That paper is followed up by Physics and Math, then piano practical. So as I speak, my hair is falling.

"There are swaggering bands, bands who are in your face. And then there are bands who get hold of you somewhere else. I think its a heart thing, an intimacy thing. Like you know them and they know you. I think we are one of those bands."
-Gary Lightbody

Snow Patrol's new album, "A Hundred Million Suns" is out 27th October.

somewhere a clock is ticking:
12:20 AM

Friday, September 19, 2008

dumbass computer has STUPID TROJAN AND MALWARE!!!

studying is NOT going my way, and I can't do my TOK presentation... My life is seriously screwed up.

Things I really want right now:

To pass my exams
To read Huck Finn and therefore acheive number 1.
To do my TOK presentation well
A new pair of Converse shoes
A macbook

somewhere a clock is ticking:
9:38 PM

AHHHH MY COM HAS VIRUS... Actually it's a Trojan but they're all the same. They're bloody annoying.

Anyway I haven't been updating for legitimate reasons. Reasons which I will not mention now because it is mentally, emotionally, spiritually, grammatically, physically painful.

Yesterday's events were also painful, and somewhat, err... Ok I'm not elaborating further because I do not want to incur the wrath of people higher up than me. But that event was just a bullet point in my long list of disturbing occurrences.

More next time.

somewhere a clock is ticking:
9:38 PM

Friday, September 5, 2008

I'm currently in a deluded state.

I just want the simple things in life. I don't need anything fancy. I don't need a sports car, or a big bungalow, or a well paying job. I just want to have... simplicity.

I want to go away, and travel to the ends of the Earth, to all the corners of the globe. I wanna take in the sights and sounds of different cultures. Get to meet new people, make new friends and acquaintances. Learn a new language. Study new cultures. Experience new cuisine.

I want to take a beach chair and sit on top of a overhead bridge and drink orange soda. I want to have long walks on the beach and swim in the sea every day. I want to sit in the back of a lorry and drive across Malaysia.

Simplicity.

Here, I want to be invisible. Nothing more than normal. Nothing but a passing thought, a blur in the corner of your eye. Just another person, another character, an extra in your blockbuster.

It's not worth all the trouble. It's not worth getting stress. The stress of responsibility, of judgement, of competition, of being somebody I'm not just to be noticed. I'd rather not. Why put in all that effort, when all they see is the outside? The outside, facade, exterior, the cover of the pages of my book. Even for those that bother, they don't read past the first chapter, they don't reach the best part of the story. Sometimes it's because I don't let them, other times it's because they lose interest. So why bother?

People can't pass judgement if you don't exist.

But I do want someone else in the lorry you know.

somewhere a clock is ticking:
11:41 PM

Thursday, September 4, 2008

Ok so like seriously, I would like to make a shout out to all my friends. For those who have started mugging hard, well, good on ya mates! For those who haven't...

High five, we're screwed.

Hmm just changed my blogskin because the old one was getting boring. Not that this one is any better but aiyaaa what the heck la.

Based on what I know so far, uhhhhh... (in case you don't know, this means I don't know anything!! Hahahahha ok bad joke)

Yes I've been reduced to the point of blogging for nothing.

Oh yes. Confirmands, your time is coming. So, be good, and see you this weekend.

Whereas for me, I gotta go get some work done. You know the funny thing is, I've been to school for 3 days already this week. For physics class and one econs class. I know ya'll gonna say that that don't count but hey, I understood stuff *scratches nose and shuffles feet*. Either way, I'm screwed. I'm not motivated la. Really. Like what Krupa said, if only motivation was an object, then I'd go to the ends of the Earth to find it. And fast. Exams are less than 3 weeks away.

Adios. Muggers.

somewhere a clock is ticking:
8:41 AM