every second dripping off my fingertips: Just Want You To Know

Saturday, April 26, 2008

I know it's really foolish, but I was really foolish. You have no idea how it is. Whenever I'm just reminded of it (even unconsciously), I'm filled with immense regret. Yes it's cliched. But it's all true.

I woke up this morning and I thought about it, and all those feelings came rushing back. It was a long time ago but I can still remember how it felt like. It was a long time ago but I still feel the pain, the regret, the disappointment. It makes me feel so stupid, so foolish. You have no idea what I would give to turn back the clock and make things right.

I might not remember the way you walk, the way you talk. But I remember the times we had, and how it felt like. And it just makes me so frustrated... Now all I'm left with is the feeling of how it all could've been. And how it'll never be the same again.

Well it's too late now isn't it? And why think, or talk about it now? Well, because I want to be reminded. Memories are there for you to... enjoy, and relive those moments... and also to remind you of the mistakes you've made, so that you'll feel the pain of that mistake, and hopefully never ever do it again.

In fact the pain that comes with it, is just a side effect... ...

Looking at your picture from when we first met
You gave me a smile that I could never forget
And nothing I could do could protect me from you that night

Wrapped around your finger, always on my mind
The days would blend 'cause we stayed up all night
Yeah, you and I were everything, everything to me

I just want you to know that I've been fighting to let you go
Some days I make it through and then there's nights that never end
I wish that I could believe that there's a day you'll come back to me
But still I have to say I would do it all again
Just want you to know

All the doors are closing I'm tryin' to move ahead
And deep inside I wish it's me instead
My dreams are empty from the day, the day you slipped away

I just want you to know that I've been fighting to let you go
Some days I make it through and then there's nights that never end
I wish that I could believe that there's a day you'll come back to me
But still I have to say I would do it all again
Just want you to know

That since I lost you, I lost myself
No I can't fake it, there's no one else

I just want you to know
That I've been fighting to let you go
Some days I make it through and then there's nights that never end
I wish that I could believe that there's a day you'll come back to me
But still I have to say I would do it all again
Just want you to know

somewhere a clock is ticking:
4:39 PM